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I started to ache when I started to think of you.
Wondering how long it would take before I step into something new.
There's only so much I can fake.
There's only so much that I can prove.
Well, do it in a minute,
I could go play the fool for you.
Lights, camera, action.
I think I'm going for it this time.
There's something you should listen to.
Could I take you for a car ride?
This is the soundtrack for our movie.
Would you tell me when we get to the best part?
I'll play it for you.
Oh no, I think I've lost this one.
Can we try again?
Well I'm a wreck.
I really can't explain it but I,
I hear the music when I look at you.
Orchestrating the song to accommodate the moment.
Well, I'm so in love with you.
Are you looking for an answer?
Because I could really use a friend tonight.
We can make this last forever.
We don't have to fear the sunlight.
I'll take a chance and steal away this movie moment.
I'm in deep whenever I'm with you.
I'm directing the scene that has you and me forever.
We'll I'm so in love with...
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[25 Feb 2005|11:35pm] |
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tonight was amazing even with you leaving early i still was amazing enough said i love you robyn
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[20 Feb 2005|11:37pm] |
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one month today and it has been amazing and tonight was also another amazing night with robyn. i love that girl more then ever and nothing will ever change that robyn you truly are the best thing in the world. i love you baby
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[19 Feb 2005|10:36am] |
taste of chaos was amazing
a static lullaby was good
underoath was great
senses fail was amazing
killswitch engage was awesome
robyn made the night even better. she took care of me i love her.
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[16 Feb 2005|08:08am] |
so im sitting in the LRC at valencia bored as fuck we are revising our paper. we being my writing group they are a bunch of good kids they work really hard not like last semester so i think i lucked out this time around. anyways like i said im bored as fuck we arent really doing shit cause the paper is done and like amazing as hell. and i still have to much fucking time left in just this class. i hate being up this early next semester this shit changes cause i can not do it anymore. anyways yesterday was alright i had to work which always sucks but i got my year review so that was a good thing i guess i got a raise. its a shitty raise but whatever its a raise. after work i went to robyns for what was gonna be a quick five minute visit but i ended up ebing there for over an hour. its funny that when im with her it just seems like time just flies by and before i know it its late as hell and weve been talking the whole time. and the best part about it is that when i got home i called her at like 11 and we still had stuff to talk about. one day we are just gonna look at each other and be like so what do we talk about now lol probably not but still i love talking to that girl she defintely makes me happier then i have ever been with anyone i love her shes my angel.
adam
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[14 Feb 2005|10:32pm] |
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today was amazing i woke up at 530 in the morning and i drove to robyns to leave surprise flowers on her car and doorstep. then went to class and when i got done with all my classes for the day robyn came over and we went on the surprise picnic which she loved. so she gave me the coolest valentine gifts two yoohoos two big bags of my favorite candy m&m crispies and this is the best part two tickets to the reggie and the full effect, new found glory show in march. omg she is amazing. i cant wait to go to the concert with my baby and share that night with her. robyn you are amazing you are truly the best thing that i have in my life and i wouldnt change it for the world. you make me so happy no one has every been able to do this. i will always love you and nothing and no one can change that. you are my world. and ill be damned if i let that change. i promise to love you forever baby. to you on this valentines day i give my heart not that you didnt already have it. it is yours forever sweetie. i love you
adam
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| to you my love |
[14 Feb 2005|03:05pm] |
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Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
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[12 Feb 2005|11:56pm] |
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so about two months or so ago my life was shit. i had this feeling of lostness and loneliness. i spent so much time just being in this state of like just blankness that i thought my life was just never going to be anything. then i went to colorado and when i came back i still felt this way but i had realized that i didnt want to be in the state of florida anymore cause i felt that that was what was wrong i was in this daily routinee of just nothing working and school and school was becoming such a drag down. then out of no where this amazing girl comes into my life and changes everything she has this smile that when i am having a shitty day at work or am just in a bad mood cause i woke up feeling horrible it makes everything better. she has these amazing eyes that when i look at them i just know that no matter what happens its still going to be okay. when i am with her i feel safe when im in her arms i feel secure. i love her with everything that i am and everything that i will be. she is what i have always wanted and what i never want to lose. she is the love of my life she is the greatest female i know(besides my mom). so if this seems pathetic to you and you dont want to hear it or read it then to bad click that X on the top of the box and stop reading. because this post is for her. so she knows how i feel even though i know she already knows this all.
robyn i love you more then ever. today was amazing and it only has proven more to me that i love you you truly are the greatest. i am way to lucky and i still dont know what i did to deserve you. i love you baby i always will
-adam
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seriously the greatest afternoon ever. i love my girlfriend best day ever. thats all i have to say
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[07 Feb 2005|11:15am] |
so this weekend was alright some attempted drama but it turned out to be for good. it made me realize how much i love robyn and how nothing and no one can ever change that. she makes me so happy and she understand that what happens in the past is just that the past. we have both lived lives where we have made mistakes but we dont let that control our relationship or our feeling for each other. to be able to have this amazing girl to come over my house sit with me and do nothing but watch dumbass tv shows like i love the 90s and then randomly have this conversation about ducks lol or about how crappy life can be or how amazingly lucky we are to be with each other. i wouldnt trade this for anything. i didnt get to see her yesterday and i miss her like crazy its insane. so anyways this week is take action tour cant wait hawthorne heights its gonna be cool kinda pissed that head automatica had to cancel but they had good reasons poor daryls dying. still it will be a good show. next week is valentines day and also the taste of chaos tour that will be the shit no matter how many bruises i get. and my babies going so she can make me feel better afterwards and cover up my wounds. funks bringing the bandaids if he goes it will probably be needed. lol oh well whatever its still gonna kick ass. oh yea superbowl was gay this year. shitty commercials and the game wasnt that good either. so thats about it i have to go back to class in a couple of hours i hate that i just want to stay home but i cant skip anymore ive done way to much of that alright whatever im out ttyl
adam
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[05 Feb 2005|07:23pm] |
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i am sick and tired of always feeling like people are watching me waiting for me to fuck up get it through your goddamn head it aint going to happen!!!
i love robyn there is nothing in this world that will change that so for people to assume that somewhere down the line something is gonna happen is really pissing me off. why the fuck do people feel this incredible need to try to screw me over im sorry that people have it out for me and that people are trying to very hard to treat me like shit. the truth is its not going to happen. i will once again repeat my previous statement i love robyn and there is nothing NOTHING that will change that EVER so fucking deal with it
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[03 Feb 2005|10:17pm] |
okay so today was a good day woke up late so i got to work late but they didnt care cause no one really does in the morning. today was weird at work the first half seemed to go by fast but then the rest of the shift sucked and was really slow and shitty i hate that feeling where every minute seems like an hour. after that went home and robyn came over and we once again had such an amazing time. we did nothing but sit around and watch tv and listen to music which is exactly what i wanted. it was awesome. robyn makes me so happy shes an amazing person and the best girlfriend(you are baby) thats it kids im out ttyl
adam
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[03 Feb 2005|06:39pm] |
so robyn just left and we had an amazing afternoon together its a beautiful thing to be able to just sleep in her arms which i got to do today and it was awesome
thank you for another amazing day baby
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[31 Jan 2005|11:14am] |
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so its about 11:15 right now and im sitting in front of the tv with my laptop on the table and im listening to from first to last. i got out of school early today cause my last teacher really didnt have anything planned at all lol. so now im sitting around till about 1 trying not to sleep cause i have to go back for my last two class which unfortunately i havent been to in the past week well only one of them my government class cause its gay.
i just got off the phone with you. you make me so happy even though we talked about nothing of any importance except you passing your test which im very happy about and how your going to be made into the little worker girl at your job shadowing today but even though it was a pointless conversation it was still good it made me smile i love talking to you and being with you you make me happier then i have ever been and i love that feeling. waking up in the morning and knowing that you are mine and that i am yours and that i have someone out in this world that makes me feel this way that connects with me in every single way that feels the same about the things i think and the things i say is the greatest feeling i have ever felt. i wouldnt change this for the world and i really cant ask for better. feels like we have known each other forever. you are amazing and perfect. you are my world. i love waking up and seeing your picture on my desktop background its a great way to start the day lol. time is flying by baby and before you know it it will be a month and its been the greatest ever so far and i know it will only get better.
adam
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[26 Jan 2005|11:12pm] |
so today was a great day. i woke up early and was tired as hell but i got up anyway and went to VCC. i actually got there on time and had a good morning session. english class was good. dr winfield cracks me the fuck up shes so damn funny and says the most random shit i love it. then i had to give a speech for my speech class go fig lol. it went well people laughed and what not it was good. went home and got this call from robyn saying that she didnt know if she was gonna be able to come over cause she had to take her dad to the car place cause his car was in the shop so i was sad and then she called me back and said she was on the way back and coming to my house yay for adam. so she came over and we spent the whole day on my couch just laying there the most best time ever. so after sitting there doing nothing i got a little sick wink wink and decided to not go to my afternoon session of school and stayed at home with robyn. she left then the carpet cleaners came over and did their shit and i took a nap lol. and after that woke up and sat around and then went with biondo to get some food and now im at his house watching family guy and updating and i think he is asleep. oh well lol im about to leave his place anyway and let him sleep. i am the happiest guy in the world right now and im the luckiest cause ive got this amazing girlfriend who cares for me more then anyone and treats me right and likes me for me and not any other reason. it feels great to know that this feeling is real i dont want it to ever end its not going to.
robyn baby you are amazing i want you to know this even though i tell you everyday you truly make me the happiest i have ever been before. when i came back from my trip i wanted to leave but now i wouldnt think about it cause your in my life and you make it so much better waking up everyday and knowing that you are mine and that i am yours just makes me smile more and more. thank you baby for being everything i wanted and then some.
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[23 Jan 2005|11:10pm] |
work was gay like always there was no one in the park and nothing to do really sucked. after i got off my shift i went straight to robyns hung out there for a few hours then left and went home did the family dinner thing and then got online and talked to robyn i really like talking to her its the best thing ever just about the most random stuff but its just like the feeling i get is undescribable its amazing.
adam
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so today was another amazing day this weekend so far has been awesome. lets start with friday. went to work early as hell but i knew the second i got off robyn and me were gonna be hanging out so after i got off i went to her house and we chilled there till like 645 cause her mom wanted to meet me. her mom is really nice shes cool. it was alot of fun being with her at her house like i was just lying with her and almost fell asleep it was amazing. then we went to my house chilled some more then went to the movies that was awesome then today went to work 745 early as hell like always and robyn went in at 815 then went home early at like 10 so she came to visit me before she left and then after i got off i went picked her up and we spent the day at my house just hanging out we did nothing but watch tv and talk and it was the most fun i have had in a long long time. i am so happy i have her in my life she makes me smile. its a beautiful thing. then anthony came over we watched signs and me and robyn almost fell asleep in each others arms then i drove her home and now i miss her and wish she was here with me right now. this is an awesome feeling i couldnt ask for anything better.
adam
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[20 Jan 2005|08:11pm] |
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[18 Jan 2005|09:04pm] |
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omg wow i am super happy i drove home with the biggest smile. she is super cool and 2 hours talking went by like nothing thats amazing i just want to hang out with her all the time. i like being this happy:)
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[17 Jan 2005|09:26am] |
10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I
don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She
looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to myself, and I cried.
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